Saturday, March 30, 2002

Two small #1s w/ extra noodle, and a #26 to share

Ahhh that there is heaven. We went for pho today. It was exceptionally good. Oh how I love pho... I should write it a sonnet. But I wont.

We then went shopping. First we went to 'Yee Olde Comic Book Shoppe' where I found a Sin City toy made by Todd MacFarlane - Marv with a hacksaw, guns, and Kevins severed head! He's going on my desk at work - it's time to retire Evil Ash who has been standing vigil for several months now. We then went to the art supply store. I've been doing a lot of drawing lately using coloured pencils - I HATE coloured pencils! I bought some really good pens/markers ($79 worth!) and a new sketchbook. Booyah kids, bring on the art!

My boss is taking us all out to an Ottawa Senators game tonight, so I decided to go into work this afternoon instead of going home and coming back downtown. But... I didn't have my key! This is bad, because I never forget my key. I have a big gaudy keyring to prevent accidents like that. I figure I left it inside the office. One of my co-workers lives downtown near the office, so I called him up and went over to get his key. Coming back to the office I find that my key is in fact NOT there. I panic. I try to think where it might be... and I decide to check the (communal) bathroom. Luckily, there it is, on the back of a toilet. *phew*

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Friday, March 29, 2002

We went and saw Blade ][ today. It was pretty darn good, I must say. Great fight scenes, lots of gore, and some super effects on the Reapers (the new badasses). I liked it as much as the first one, perhaps more.

I'm feeling really bummed out right now. I got to thinking earlier, and that's always a dangerous thing for me - the nature of my life, how unwanted/undesired I am, the usual lot. I think it'd be best if I were hit by a bus or something. I'm so tired of feeling this way...

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Thursday, March 28, 2002

I miss Aaron. :( He made my days pass so much easier... *waits*

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Song for the day!

The Defense - Bad Religion


Nothing comes easier than madness in the world today.
Mass paranoia is a mode not a malady.
I'd like to watch a thousand cable channels but there's nothing on,
And my high-speed connection's monitored daily by the pentagon.
These things are seldom what they seem.
I'm not inclined to enjoy my dreams.

   Won't go away.
   No peace and no friends.
   We trace the mortal edge.
   To state the obvious, this world is perilous for us.
   No sense and no guide.
   Ain't it beautiful to be alive. (yeah right)
   I won't resign before the struggle ends,
   So I'll construct a sound defense.

We are the prey and culture is the predator.
I'm running out of time.
Where conditions are positional.
Shadows of a doubt cast reluctance and depravity.
There's got to be a way to overcome this grim reality.
Is there an option left for me?
I'm not immune to despondency.
There's no way.

   {chorus}

There's a signpost on the corner, and it keeps everybody safe
We were all made in the shade.
And your mother's in the kitchen, where she's patching all the cracks in the wall.
We never had a care in the world.

Too much sacrifice, (no shade)
It's hard to recognize. (no light)
Traps and compromise (just black) obscuring deadly alibis (and white)
It's combinational. (my plans)
The pressure's so intense, (and designs)
So I construct a sound defense (no way)
Nothing's plainer than madness in the world today. (no sign)
I must conceal myself and steal myself and break away. (no grace)
I'll seek initiative in matters that are black and white, (no sense)
So I construct a sound defense.

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Ah such a lovely day! It's warming up nicely (going to reach 6C!) and the snow is starting to retreat already. I'd hug that lovely sun if I could reach it and it wouldn't incinerate me!

I've been playing around with Moray/Povray lately, using it to visualize potential tattoo designs. I used to be a big ray-tracing freak. I started on my old 386DX40 with Povray back in Jr. Highschool. I couldn't run Moray because I didn't have a math co-processor, so I had to script my scenes by hand. Not too many kids know 3d math in grade 8, so I guess it gave me a leg up in the long run, but it was a real pain at the time. I'll never forget assembling a scene that was my name done in metallic spheres on a simple checked plain. I set it to render at high resolution(at the time - 640x480) and decent anti-aliasing before visiting Kathleen for 4 days. When I got back, it was only 1/3 done - it had barely reached my name at all. Ahh good old 386's... slow as mollasses.

This refound interest in Povray has been helpful, but lacking. The shape I need can only easily be represented by a triangle mesh, and I'm too lazy to write a program to generate the mesh. Stupid spiraling dragons! I may try to...erm...evaluate...Lightwave to see if it can help me out in this area. Also, I'd really like to use the cel-renderer that comes with lightwave - a raytraced design isn't THAT useful for a tattoo design, but a cel-rendered design would be ideal.

Oh CRAP. Just got mail from a co-worker. Both he and his one-year old baby have strep throat. I guess we have a name for the bug going around the office. As a child I had strep throat 4-5 times - it was NOT fun. :(

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Tuesday, March 26, 2002

Another day, another HEAVY SNOWFALL WARNING *sob*

Stolen from theweathernetwork.com:

Nasty winter weather ahead for Ontario

Mar.25 (TWN)-The drive into work will be a challenging one for many in Ontario Tuesday morning, as parts of the province are in for some snow, freezing rain and ice pellets.

The wintry weather will move into the province ahead of a storm that will track towards the lower Great Lakes from Arkansas Tuesday.

At 3:42 p.m. EST, Environment Canada has issued Heavy Snowfall warnings for parts of eastern Ontario and Heavy Snowfall and Freezing Rain warnings for parts of southern Ontario.

Parts of eastern Ontario stand to receive generally 15 to 20 centimetres of snow, with locally 25 centimetres possible. Parts of southern Ontario, meantime, could see several hours of freezing rain and generally 15 centimetres of snow, with locally 20 centimetres possible.

Drivers in both regions should prepare for hazardous driving conditions, including slippery roads and blowing and drifting snow.


Suicide never looked so good.

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Monday, March 25, 2002

This is for the incest skeletor mom...

Hee hee.. sometimes Jerry Springer makes me laugh.

...ANYHOO...

Late day Friday I was hit upside the head (I HAVE been watching too much Jerry!) by whatever nasty bug that I had a month ago. I came home early Friday with a crazy fever. I flopped into bed and slept for a good 5 hours. I spent the weekend in bed dealing with the fever, sinus pain, headache, etc... I'm feeling somewhat better today, but I decided to work from home just so I don't aggrivate it any more than I have. I never did get to see Blade II - maybe this week. Le sigh.

Our cable was on the fritz earlier, and the cable guy was in to check it out. I LOVE it when the cable guy comes over - I always hope I'm around when it happens. The devil in me loves to mess with his head. Two women, one bed (which is in the living room!), and me in a wingback chair, in my nightie, listening to Bad Religion and hammering away on my laptop. They always look so awkward and anxious. Hee!

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Friday, March 22, 2002

Another beautiful springtime day in Ottawa. -18C + windchill and more snow on the way. I'm making up gods to pray to on the off-chance that one of them actually exists and is willing to put an end to this aweful weather.


SAVE ME JEBUS!


Oh well, T G I F at least. I'm going to go see Blade II tomorrow. I hope it's as good as the first one, which I think happens to be the best comic book movie adaptation ever. One thing troubles me - I've seen Whistler in some of the commercials. They had better come up with a damned good reason why he isn't still dead!


On the topic of comic book adaptations, I keep thinking what a Sin City movie could be like. Who could play Marv? And Kevin? Steve Buscemi would make a cool Kevin (am I the only one to think Steve Buscemi is REALLY creepy?). As for Marv... well... that's a tough one. Who's big enough, ugly enough, and scary enough to play Marv? Idunno. Back to sleep for me.

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Thursday, March 21, 2002

Nice colour. :P

I haven't got the worst boss in the word (in fact he's a good bloke who you can have a joke with and he knows his stuff) but sometimes he does stuff that pisses me right off. Today we had a load of VIPs looking around at all the stuff we're developing in the lab. There was a schedual of the demoes being done. Having no demo to show people and being possibly the lowest ranking employee in the department, I didn't have to show them anything.

It was coming up to lunch, I had just pulled my sandwich out of my bag when suddenly my boss pops up and asks if I could give a quick demo. Grudgingly I put the sandwich away and move like a cheetah on speed to get something I can show these big-wigs from Japan. I get everything set up and then I wait, not wanting to get on with my work in case it crashes my computer (as it frequenty does). And I wait. And wait. And then they go to lunch so I decide to have my lunch quickly. Eventually they return and I wait for the oppotunity to give my demo. THE MOTHER FUCKERS NEVER EVEN GET TO ME!^"%^"%^!%!!!!

They were already behind schedual when my boss asked me to prepare something so I wasted a whole fucking day when I could have been doing something productive.

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Due to constant pestering from Aaron about the colour green I was using for my background, I have changed it as well. I'm so weak willed!

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I've been getting complaints about the font sizes on this page being too small, so I've upped them some... how about now, whiners?! :)

My ears feel very good today... I'm thinking she may have been able to get to a 2 guage afterall. Doh! Oh well. I'll go back again in a few months and insist on trying for a 0 immediately.

I seem to be slipping back into one of my "girlie" phases. I've been wearing lipstick and foundation - I need help! It really doesn't suit me, and I feel like a clown, but I just can't help myself. Must...get...back...to...butch...

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Wednesday, March 20, 2002

Ahh. Such a lovely spring day here in Ottawa. Except for the BLIZZARD of course. Oh yee gods how I hate snow. I'm a big fan of that global warming "problem" people keep mentioning. I'd happily live on a burnt out husk of a planet if it meant never seeing snow again. Maybe I should just move to Delhi or Hyderabad or some other suitably blasted and scortched city.

I plan on stretching out my ear piercings today. My goal is to get to a 0 guage (8mm) eventually, but I should be able to get to a 2-4(5-6mm) today. *crosses fingers* Having my ears repierced and stretched originally was the most painful piercing I'd ever had done (including the chest stuff). I'm hoping it's easier today with just the stretching, but I'm not optimistic. Gonna pop some Advil before I go just in case.

I've been hunting down an odd bug in my code today only to realize it was a consequence of the test-suite I'm using. I should've figured it would produce the output I was seeing, but I guess I'm having another dullard day. And I've been on such a positive roll too... :(

Edit: She was able to get them to a 4 guage today! Woot!

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Tuesday, March 19, 2002

I like watching people spend money. I went to look around the Sony store for portable mp3 players today, and I conned one of my co-workers into coming with me. He was looking for a digital camera, so I thought maybe he could find something there. Well, neither of us were too successfull on our hunts - the mp3 player I want costs far more than I'm willing to pay, and he didn't find the brand of digitial camera he was looking for. However, on the way out I suggested that we look into the It Store (a gag store... sells novelty items such as walking penii and edible underwear and the like). While looking around we spotted a Thundercats t-shirt (old cartoon.. ya gotta love it!). For the hell of it I started nagging him to buy it. Five minutes later he had bought it. Felt good watching someone other than me waste money on crap. :)

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Monday, March 18, 2002

This would explain why I'm getting less and less intelligent as I'm getting older. Oi.

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On impulse I ordered Wrestlemania on PPV last night. Don't ask me why - last years was pretty bland - solid, but bland. I remember the grande Wrestlemanias of yore, full of washed out celebrities. I figured with Hogan and Rock wrestling we could see a run-in by some washed out wrestlers at the very least, so I went for it. Again, it was pretty bland for the most part - but again, very solid. With one very notable exception. Hogan and Rock.

Now, I've never really been a big Hulk Hogan fan - I generally like the smaller, more athletic guys. I've also never been a Rock fan - I think he's a git. How he ever managed to become so popular I'll never figure out. However, their match was sure to be a classic - two of the most popular wrestlers in pro wrestling history going at it. And it sure lived up to expectation. Their match was amazing. Hogan, despite getting on in his years, is still in amazing shape - both he and the Rock were putting all their effort into giving the fans a show worthy of the hype. What made it particularly interesting was the crowd. If you watch wrestling at all, you'll know that the Rock gets SO MUCH fan support from the audience. He's continually 'over' (in wrestling lingo). Hogan on the other hand has been nursing a very healthy 'heel' (bad guy) role for years now. Logic would tell you that the crowd would be cheering for the Rock and booing at Hogan. NOT SO! The crowd was behind Hogan almost totally. Hearing the Rock booed sounded sooooo good. The match was sea-sawing back and forth for a good 20 minutes. However, in the end, the Rock got a clean pin on Hogan. Hogan never even tried to make it seem close - he just gave the Rock his victory. Very classy thing for him to do. After the match was over, they shook hands - something wrestlers just don't do anymore. It was good to see.. really made me think of earlier Wrestlemanias. Hogan was trying to leave the ring (in obvious pain - he apparently broke a rib this week training) but Rock wouldn't let him go. He was insisting that he give the crowd the old 'Hulkamania' poses. Hulk did so, and the crowd was going absolutely NUTS. Looks like Hulk is a 'face' (good guy!) again...

Yah, I'm a wrestling fan... but I don't live in a trailor park. Yet. :P

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Saturday, March 16, 2002

Got Spaced: The Complete Second Series on DVD through the post yesterday. I am a very happy man.

Over the past few years there's been some excellent sitcoms made in the UK (amougst all the utter shit ones) including the League of Gentlemen, The Royle Family and Spaced. Spaced is my favourite though. It appeals to me on so many levels. The characters are interesting and three dimensional (probably because the main two characters are so heavily based on the comedians who play them), the series is shot is a beautiful and cinematic way and there's about 100 geek jokes in it per episode.

Like the sitcoms mentioned above it has a warmth to it, a surreal realism to it. They go around shooting zombies in the head, build robots and rescue small animals from high security testing facilities but at the same time you believe the characters could be real. Most sitcoms (Friends, for example) feel sterile and lifeless, all the jokes are obvious and used with minor variations over 200+ episodes and you just feel as if everything is about money rather than amusing the audience. According to the commentry, the dog in Fraiser actually earns more per episode than the main two comedians/writers in Spaced do.

Which brings me onto the DVD itself. Unlike Friends, which has 4 episodes per disc and the only extra being a rather dubious "director's cut", the Spaced DVDs is packed with extras. On one disc you get all the episodes (7 in total), numberous deleted scenes for each episode, commentry for all the episodes/deleted scenes, out takes, trailers, raw footage, biographies, photo galleries, etc. They've obviously put a lot of hard work and passion into this DVD and it really shows. Even the menus are great.

I don't see why Channel 4 feels the need to spend £20 million buying Friends when they could have made 4 sitcoms and 5 movies themselves for the same price. In fact, just make Spaced and give me the other £19.75 million. :P

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Thursday, March 14, 2002

Ok. I've been bug-hunting all morning. One of my co-workers found a very peculiar bug in my code. It made no sense whatsoever. I've spent the last 3 hours ripping my code apart, only to realize the bug wasn't in my code at all. So I then went to look into the guts of our servlet container. SO. What was the problem? Debug=1 in our server config was corrupting requests.

%&!@#(*%^@#^)!~@

Ahem. I love wasting mornings.

Time to slack off for a bit.

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Wednesday, March 13, 2002

Haha!

We went down the pub tongiht. I was great. I'd like to write more but my fingers don't work (amoung other body parts).

Errrm........ yeah. :D

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Happiness is a new pair of underwear. The first day you wear them it always feels so good. So very snuggly and comfortable. I should buy more underwear.

I'm really digging the Dropkick Murphy's. They're making want to head into a pub that contains a lot of wood and then drink myself under the table utterly and completely. I'm definitly going to have to pick up some of their older stuff.

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Y'know what? I hate the music industry. The more I've been reading on the subject, the deeper my hatred gets. Mind you, when I say the music industry, I'm referring to the suits and machinary that brings music to market, not the artists themselves (although in some cases, I have a bit of hatred to spare *cough* Britney Spears *cough*). In fact, I've made a resolution - I will no longer support the record companies. I will no longer buy new CDs. I will instead buy them used or I'll download the music online (mostly the later). I was quite adament about not pirating music - I didn't believe it was fair to the artist. However, upon closer examination, the current system isn't exactly fair to the artist either. I'm tired of lining the industries pockets. By buying used CDs, I prevent them from seeing a penny of my money. I've just registered for an account at Fairtunes - I'll help the artists along that way.

Take a gander at the Future of Music Coalition if you're half as sick as me of paying $18 for a CD, almost none of which will reach the artist(s) who performs on it.

Having said that, I picked up Dropkick Murphy's - "Sing Loud, Sing Proud" and Rancid - "...And Out Come the Wolves" yesterday - used.
I've had the rancid album on tape for years, and it's well past its prime. Dropkick Murphy's is new for me. I have one of their songs on a Hellcat Records sampler "Give'em The Boot". They're an Irish/Celtic Punk band. Great drinking music.

LET THE REVOLUTION BEGIN! *ahem*

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Help me.

I'm addicted to ebay. It all started only yesterday when I realised we'd need a larger hub for next year. Instead of 2 people plus a server there's going to be 3 people and a server. Enough for a 4-port hub but it didn't leave any room if anyone wanted to come round for a bit of Big Fat Goldfish action. Also, our current hub is only 10Mbps and I wouldn't mind one that's 10/100Mbps. So I thought I might look to see how much an 8-port hub would cost. Dabs.com's prices started at around £80. I'm not really that desperate for one so I decided I might try my luck on ebay. Never used ebay before but I have heard horror stories.

Anyway, I found a second hand one and I'm currently winning the auction with a bid of £10.50. I'm not exactly cool under pressure so this kind of thing both excites me and scares the crap out of me. If I win this I could find myself getting really addicted, scavenging for hours on end for bargains that I'll need use.

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Tuesday, March 12, 2002

And now for some fucking cheerful music.

Shining - The Misfits

Control the urge to spit up vile worms... soul
Monsters seduced by her attention
Try draining the infection

Locked in a world of vomit soaked skin... Heaven
Monsters seduced by her attention
She's draining the infection

"Carol Anne" the beast is calling
"Carol Anne, Carol Anne" she can hear souls sing
"Carol Anne" the beast it needs you
Here it comes, here it comes
Reaching out somewhere from inside your TV

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I've had 3 people bitching at me now about how I "Put Myself Down" in the last entry. I don't see it that way at all. I'm just telling it as I (and others) see it. I know I'm creepy. I know I'm scary. I know I'm fugly. I know I'm physically defective. It'd be a lot more productive and a lot less frustrating if people would stop pretending otherwise. :P

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Monday, March 11, 2002

Just got back from the tattoo parlor. It was a very productive and enjoyable time, except near the end. Had some great conversation with my lovely tattoo artist Sara - we were both in pretty talkative moods. It's a really nice change from my daily life. I don't get to talk like a NORMAL person too often. At work I'm the wacky and scary lesbian creepazoid... And the conversation there mostly involves geeky things. I can actually talk to her and feel almost normal. It's really nice. She got quite a bit done on one wing. The red colouring is lovely - bright and vibrant. I'm really happy with how it's progressing. There was a hitch when we moved to the second wing, however.

First, some history...

The last time I went to see her I was in a FOUL mood. It was one of those days where you spend half an hour in the bathroom crying for no reason. On top of it, I was recovering from a nasty bug. By the time I saw her I was fit for bed and nothing else. I wasn't handling the pain well at all, twitching about in a very unproductive manner. In an attempt to make it easier on me, Sara used a numbing agent on the tattoo area. All was well and good for about 5-10 minutes at which time I started to feel very woozy. My hands wouldn't stop shaking, and I had this unual feeling all about me. At the time I attributed it to me feeling depressed and sick. We stopped there and agreed to meet in 3 weeks time.

That would be today. Back to my story. All was well and fine until she moved to the second wing. I was dealing with the pain pretty well, but I was still twitching a bit. Again in an attempt to soothe my pain Sara applied the same numbing agent. 5-10 minutes later the same symptoms started. It was at this point it occured to me that it had started last time after she used the numbing agent. I don't know whether I'm alergic to something in the spray, or if it is maybe interacting with one of the medications I have to take. Whatever the cause, we agreed that we wouldn't use it in the future. She's going to call the manufacturer for me to see if anyone else has ever had this type of reaction - it'd be nice to know what the cause was.

So, with a sad heart, we stopped for the day. We did get a good 3.5 hours in, so I was quite happy with the day. Sara, the absolute SWEETHEART that she is, seemed really guilty about it all, but it wasn't her fault - I'm a frail and pathetic freak of nature. I'm surprised I'm not allergic to air. :P

It's now an hour later, and I feel fine. I think I'll get a good sleep now.

Good night!

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So it's the 6 month anneversay of the WTC/Pentegon attacks...

"Where were you when it happened?"

I was at work, documenting some old code. There were only two of us there at the time, Paul and I. I hear Paul say "Holy shit! The world trade center just blew up!" or something to that effect. I assume he's joking and don't pay any attention to him. But he continues talking about it, and I go over to see what the hell he's talking about. Sure enough, there on RobTVs video news stream is the WTC, smoke pouring out of it. At this point another co-worker comes in, and we're all standing around watching when the second plane hit. When this happens we all begin to have a good idea of what's going on - it's an attack of some sort. We all rush back to our desks and begin scouring the internet looking for any information we can find. Sadly, there isn't much to be found. All of the major news sites were down due to load. The only site that was responding was slashdot.org, which did a remarkable job just staying up. By now most everyone was in the office, and we were all quite confused. One of the guys lived very close by, so we went to his place to watch TV. Sound plan, right? Well, not quite - he lived across the street from the US embassy, which by now was swarming with cops. In his place we were watching CNN and we were just really beginning to understand what was happening. It was here we saw the second tower fall. We were all feeling pretty sick to our stomachs. I was drinking Jamaican beer and liking it - and I HATE beer. After a time we all went back to the office and tried to work. We weren't successful. I ended up going home, where I flopped into bed immedately and had some bad dreams.

"What has it done to you?"

It's made me more sure than ever that we humans will die out soon and we'll deserve it 100%. We're no better than animals. Worse, in fact, because we can wilfully create such havok and pain on the world in which we live. We're parasites. That's the reaction from the part of me that loathes myself and what I am.
Now moving on to the part of me that is terribly bored and far too comfortable with life... That part has become a news junky. At work I always have a window to CNN.com open now. If nothing interesting happens there, I switch to foxnews.com or some other site to see if they've picked up on some story that hasn't yet made it to CNN.com. I can't get enough of it. I keep waiting for the same HIGH that came on September 11th - to know that I'm witnessing earth-changing events unfold. Part of me ENJOYED September 11th. I felt alive for those few hours where I wasn't sure if I would live to see the next day. How far would the attack go? How many other facets had we not yet seen? Would the US retaliate immediately, sending us all to hell? It felt good. I'm not ashamed to say that. After all, I'm as parasitic and bloodthirsty as the rest of my species.

Anyway... moving on...

Tattoo appointment today. I really hope I don't wig out today like I did last time. That was really bad...

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Saturday, March 09, 2002

Wooooooooooo!



Metal Gear Solid 2 arrived on my doorstep this morning, which was great. Been waiting for this game for a long time now and it looks great. Haven't played it that much yet (I keep getting stuck and I'm easily frustrated).

One of two things has also happened; either Orange (my mobile phone service provider) has unbanned ICQ's SMS service or ICQ has got around it. Either way it's good to be able to receive and send text messages via ICQ again. I tested it today by sending approx. 30 messages to Andrew. I think it works. :P

Tomorrow I'm going house hunting again since I need somewhere to live for my final year of my degree. Not a fun experience when you consider the housing crisis in Guildford and the reluctance of landlords to rent their properties to students. We're looking at two places tomorrow, one is next door the university and as such I'm 99% sure the people looking around it before will take it. The other is a good 40 minutes walk from university and therefore no-one wants it. Fingers crossed we get the first place otherwise I'll be doing a lot of walking next year. At least it isn't in The Projects, unlike some of the other places on offer.

Song of the Week: Vordhosbn by Aphex Twin. I don't really like his latest album. He's an undeniable genius but he littered his latest album with piano-based tracks which really spoiled the whole pace and flow of the album. I think he does this kind of thing just to piss people off. Damn fine track though. Proper fuck-off acid rave stuff. Mmmmm.....

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Friday, March 08, 2002

A testament to positive thinking.

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Thursday, March 07, 2002

Today I am a ravenous animal. After having gorged on a smoothie, a huge bowl of pho with extra noodles and even a chocolate turtle the size of my fist I am still hungry. People here are betting that I have a tape worm. I think they may be on to something.

It's an absolutely GORGEOUS day outside. It pains me to be at work. It's warm, it's sunny, it's SO NOT WINTER. I wish I was out wandering around... oh well. Maybe tomorrow or this weekend. The weather is supposed to hold out for a few days at least.

I think Aaron needs a lesson on when to post and when to edit a previous post. That slacker is pushing all of my entries off the main page!

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[3:30PM] Forth. Explorer.exe just crashed for no apparent reason. Bah. :P

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[2:21PM] Third crash of the day. Think I've found another memory problem with this program I'm testing. Think I'll do something else this afternoon instead. :P

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[10:56AM] Second crash of the day. Crashed when testing someone's MPEG-7 content extractor. I think my computer ran out of memory. Bah.

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Unfortunately I can still read your inane ramblings, dear. :P

Anyway, who else reads this rubbish?

Anyway, back to MY blog.... :P

[9:14AM] First crash of the day. I'm not even usually in work until about twenty past nine. Gah, I hate my work computer. I was promised a new one 6 months ago but nothing came of it (they obviously realised it would be wasted on a slacker like me). Bah.

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Wednesday, March 06, 2002

Why I'm posting to a blog that no one can currently read I'll never know, but who cares...


See what Care Bear you are.


Why do I keep taking these retarded tests? If you believe I'm Cheer Bear then I have a foot that your ass can eat, mofo.

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Someone fix Portent. Please.

It hurts. :(

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Kneel mere mortal for I am a GOD.

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I started out blogging today by posting some Redd Kross lyrics, but I deleted the post. As much as I'm into the feel of the music today, the lyrics don't really say much to me right now.

I think I broke one of my baby toes last night. See, I'm one of the clutziest people alive. I'm not exagerating here either - ask anyone who knows me. I have this habit of walking into walls and tripping on air and such. Well, last night I walked into a doorframe. Full force stride, directly on my baby toe, right into the frame wearing only socks. I heard and felt a nice little CRUNCH. It hurts like hell today, but there isn't much you can do for a broken toe, so there is no reason to see a doctor. But yee GODS it hurts. I think my brain feels that my body is smaller than it actually is and has issues navigating the beast. At least that's what I'm attributing it to. I'd think of a better explanation, but I might end up hurting myself in the process.

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Tuesday, March 05, 2002





you have an ominosity quotient of

five.


you are somewhat more ominous than average.



find out your ominosity quotient.



Aren't blogs exciting? :P

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Thanks to X I have taken the ominosity test. *ahem*





you have an ominosity quotient of

six.


you are really ominous.



find out your ominosity quotient.

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I had a very positive visit with my shrink today. I'm not as crazy as I had thought! Go me!

I just read an interesting article by Wendy McElroy over on foxnews.com. Wendy writes a weekly aritcle on the current feminist affairs for Fox and I've yet to disagree with her opinions (Amazing, I actually AGREE with someone. How fucked is that??). This weeks article focuses on identity politics, a topic I have very strong feelings on. In fact, it is how identity is precieved by the general feminist community that makes me loathe calling myself a feminist. Feminist man-haters are no better than misogynist pricks in my eyes. I'll rant about this another time when I feel a bit more coherent.

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Monday, March 04, 2002

MUCKING FONDAYS!


Ahem.

Today has been useless. As in tits on a bull useless.

I managed to sleep on my hand last night. Normally this wouldn't be a bad thing, however I had my thumb jammed into my neck at a 90 degree angle. I can no longer feel my thumb except when it decides to send a spike of pain up my arm. It makes typing quite awkward to say the least, and thinking just as difficult. I'm usually good at ignoring pain, but this is really getting to me.

I guess there have been a couple of bright spots...I've decided to write a Blogger client on my companies wireless framework. This will allow me to write blog entries from my RIM Blackberry. I'm such a nerd... I'm also REALLY getting back into Redd Kross. I'm lovin' this so much. I feel 16 again...

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Sunday, March 03, 2002

Right, in my drunken state I missed out a few details about what happened on Saturday.


1. Andrew had two car crashes. His dad crashed into him at about 11:30am and then my mum crashed into him at 11:35am. Not to worry, my mum didn't do any damage and his dad's crash was "unavoidable".

2. Met Ros. Ros is a girl Andrew works with and who I've spoken to on the phone on a number of occassions. Andrew also fancies the pants off her. Nice girl though, always up for a laugh (or an aftershock).

3. Met my best friend from primary school who I haven't seen in 9 years. Crazy stuff.

4. We got chucked out of the first nightclub (called Jumping Jacks) because apparently someone we were with was jumping.


That's about all I forgot, which is lucky.

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Saturday, March 02, 2002

(It's 2am and this is my first drunken blog so please excuse me)

First off, I better start with a geography lesson. This weekend I went and stayed with my parents. They live in a county called "Hertfordshire" which is generally posh. However, we live near the border of north London (rough, but occassionally posh.very trendy) and Essex (rough as fuck).

First off, myself and Andrew (aka DrDuran) went down our local wargaming club. They were running some kind of WW2 game event thing. I was told there might be some pizza going so I came along. Eventually, after a lot of bearded wargamers rolling dice, we got some pizza which was lovely. I kept asking Andrew if he wanted to drive me to Ikea. Unfortunately, he didn't. He lives with his parents so he doesn't understand just how cool Ikea is and why I need to go there. We ended up going to Enfield Town (north London) which was good because I needed a squash racket. Out of the four sports shops in Enfield, only ONE actually sold sports equipment but I found a nice, if a little expensive, racket which made me very happy.

We went back to the club, the winners we annouced and then we went home.

Later that evening we went down the pub (hurrah!). I don't usually get to go down the pub as the only person in Guildford I really know is my flatmate. So we went down the pub in Cheshunt (Hertfordshire). Myself and Andrew got drunk and eventually it was time for the pub to close. There was talk of going back to someone's house and we all piled into a taxi.

It turned out we were actually going to a club in Harlow (Essex). Despite the fact I was wearing a t-shirt and trainers they allowed me in (in England to the only clubs that allow people in, in trainers, are the most underground of the underground and the shittest clubs. This certainly wasn't underground.). Fair enough, I was happy, and very drunk. We danced about in this cack 80s themed arse club for about an hour and then eventually one of us got chucked out.

So we went to the second club in Harlow. Which also let me in. In trainers and a t-shirt. And we danced a bit more. And then we started to sober up and realised what a shit-hole we were in. So me and Andrew got a taxi home which cost £20. Not too bad considering the time and distance. But this did mean one hell of an expensive night out for me. Bah.

To summarise, Andrew you owe me at least £10.

Song of the week: Feel in Love with a Girl by White Stripes. Fucking class. About a minute long, but bass guitar, no trumpets. Just one bloke singing, guitar and drums. Simplicity but genius at the same time. Proper "restores your faith in rock'n'rolll" stuff. Love it.

Blog over.

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Today was good. We went out and had a nice big bowl of pho and then went off to the used CD shop. There I actually FOUND the Redd Kross CD I was looking for, and for only $10! They had another Redd Kross CD there as well, so I picked them both up. We then went to the piercing shop. Luscious ordered some new jewerly and we watched two losers brawling out in front of the store. It was fun! After this we had our hair cut and dyed (a reddish blond for me). From there we went to the local desert farm and gorged on cheesecake and zuccoto. On the way home I picked up my limited edition Inquisitor prints that I had sent off to be mounted. They look fantastic! All in all this was a very good day, if not expensive :)

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Friday, March 01, 2002

I had such a cool dream last night. I woke up thinking "I HAVE to remember this. It'll make a great blog entry!" I, erm, then forgot completely. Well, ALMOST completely.

There was this girl I had the hots for back in Jr. High School. Her name was Erica, and she was gorgeous. There was a period of time I had convinced myself I was actually in love with her. Anyhoo... she was in my dream. For some reason we were both trying to hide from some people that wanted to do us harm. We ended up snuggling together in a rather small sleeping bag. It.. erm.. progressed.. from there. It was quite odd - I almost NEVER have sexual dreams. I wonder what brought this on...

Oh...flashback. The rest of the dream had to do with a play I was performing in... I wish I could remember more of it, I have this feeling it was really important.

Oh yah. TGIF

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